Alan Kingsley

This is Alan. He is in incarcerated for a crime he participated in when he was 22 years old. He is now 57. Alan has spent years rehabilitating himself, taking every available opportunity to better himself in every way possible. Alan has lost of his loved ones along the way, and has a tremendous amount of remorse for his actions when he was young. More than anything, he wants everyone to know how sorry he is for his past actions, and asks for forgiveness for the person he used to be.

I am very interested in the idea of being a voice for those of us that are never heard because we are confined behind these walls. Many people don’t ever see or know what many of us have done since being in here. The accomplishments we made in our educations, taking self-help programs, long term employments and turning our life around. As in here (KDOC) you have to devote yourself to time and efforts like a disabled person undergoing self rehabilitation. Which many like myself have done and we have certificates and diplomas to show our accomplishments and success.

For many like myself. I was young, dumb and uneducated when I came in here. I was 22 years old and I am 57 now. I only have myself to blame for the mistakes that I made back then. The person that I was back then, is not the same person I am today. Even though I was not the trigger person that dreadful night, that has had me where I am today. The choice I made to be with the person I was with that night, I made myself.

Coming in here, I lost more than my freedom. I lost everything I had; property was one thing but the most painful loss is and was family and even friends over the years. First, slowly drifting away from you. Fewer visits, phone calls and letters ‘til the news comes, they passed away and I wasn’t there for them to say “Goodbye”. It reflected on me, how the victim’s family felt when they got the news, and I am so sorry to them for that. Our unheard voices in here hurts in so many ways. I know as I have been one for so many years now. The biggest regret is not being able to say “I am sorry” to everyone I offended or hurt when I was younger. As I truly am sorry for my past and what part I played that has me in here.

Today, I am thankful for Inside-Out Alliance of Kansas for being my voice that has been silent for so long. Thank you Inside-Out Alliance and Dianne.

For everyone who knows me and I may have offended, please know that I am very, very sorry for my actions and I hope you can forgive me for my past.

My life has forever changed since being in here and I am forever thankful for that. The journey ahead of me on the roads I will travel will only lead to success. Even with a few road blocks that may be ahead (such as the mail room here, the disrespectful guards I come across and the unsafe conditions and food in here that I deal with daily), I know that my stable mind and strong heart will not stop me from getting better and always wanting to do good for others and my community, as well as for myself. Nor will it stop me from showing people I am not the same as I was back then. Just like my being sober for 38 years now, is because of having a stable mind and having control of myself.

My saying now is, always keep your head above the clouds as it never rains up there. And that is so true in many ways. Also, always believe in yourself, for no one else might, especially if you don’t have a voice to be heard. Thank you Inside-Out Alliance of Kansas for wanting to be my voice.

Certificates, Diplomas, & Letters of Recommendations earned by Mr. Kingsley:

• State of Kansas High School Diploma March 16, 2000

• Certificate/Data Processing May 10, 2011

• Lifers Organization

  July 9, 2008

• Certificate of Appreciation March 20, 2010

• Certificate/Anger Management August 30, 2010

• Certificate/Cognitive Change April 25, 2011

• Certificate National Geographic Member

  February 1, 2012

• Award/Continual Service Lifers Organization

  March 24, 2012

• Certificate/ Seven Habits of Highly Effective People

  June 2, 2012

• Certificate/Breaking the cycle of Domestic Violence

  August 17, 2012

• Certificate/Personal Growth June 20, 2012

• Certificate/ Interpersonal Communication October 5, 2012

• Certificate/ Human Development September 27, 2018

• Certificate/ Customer Service Basics January 27, 2019

• Certificate/ Career and Personal Finance Advice

  February 1, 2019

• Certificate/ Prison Re-Entry Network Part 1

  February 2, 2019

• Certificate/ My Money February 17, 2019

• Certificate/ Food Safety Training-

• Safety Practices and Procedures February 17, 2019

• Certificate/ Food Safety to Personal Hygiene-

  March 6, 2019

• Certificate/ Serving Safe Food April 8, 2019

• Certificate/ Anger Management August 29, 2019

• Certificate/ Political Science 232: American Government

  January 20, 2020

• Certificate/ Reaching Out From Within 2021

• K-State Master Gardener November 17, 2021/2022

• Awarded David Gibby-Search for Excellence “!st Place”

  2021

• Global Leadership Summit 2023-2024
  

  Letters of Recommendation:

• Jerry Ruzicka BIBR April 6, 2015

• Carl J. Hughes BBR Executive Director November 6, 2017

• Susan Peavler CC ll April 3, 2015

• R. Chinidling CO l May 16, 2001

• Chaplain Don Almond April 2, 2015

• Rev. Edgar Whalen April 9, 2015

• Brett Peterson-LCF Executive Officer- April 1, 2015

• Brett Peterson-LCF Executive Officer- July 15, 2015

• Sergeant Peters-KDOC March 28, 2015

• Leroy Mathis-KCI Data Processing Manager-

  September 16, 2010

• Leroy Mathis-KCI Data Processing Manager-

  April 6, 2015

• Robert E. Gregory CO 1 2017

• E Roman-KCI Union Supply Group

  2021